“He says he loves me. Whatever that means” I felt that.
Smile & Wave
The one that got away. MGV .
20.
Missed class again, couldn’t even bring myself out of bed this morning.
It doesn’t matter what I do or what I choose, I’m what’s wrong.
(via being-sixteen)
I didn’t ask for this. I don’t want to live this sad, unfulfilled life.
This white boy came over a month ago and asked why my pillow was shiny. I told him it was satin, because I need a satin case to maintain my natural hairstyle overnight.
This past weekend I stayed over at his house after a party because it was too late to go back to Manhattan, and when I got in bed I noticed that one of his pillowcases was satin.
I asked him why a white, nearly bald man needed a satin pillowcase and he said he bought it for me, in case I needed to sleep over sometime. He didn’t want me to ruin my hair on cotton.
I kissed the ever-loving shit out of him.
That’s how you show a brown girl you care.
Update: he’s my boyfriend. our 1 year anniversary is coming up next month.
New Update: We had our two year anniversary on August 9th.
We also have moved in together.
As we went through his stuff for the move, we found the last of those pillowcases he bought for me in 2015.
I sleep on it every night.
THREE YEARS AS OF LAST THURSDAY
(via the-british-pineapple)
That awkward moment when you realize as a result of being emotionally neglected and abused as a child you never learned how to vocalize “what’s wrong” because no one ever cared enough to ask…
Or when they did they didn’t take the time to understand, or used it against you to bully you, invalidating your experience and minimizing your feelings labeling you “too sensitive” so as an adult you keep everything inside to the detriment of your own mental health and relationships 🙃🙃🙃
(via alltime-horizz0n)
“My heart is hurting so badly that it feels like my body is slowly shutting down.”—
“I’ve been praying for years for something to kill me, so I don’t have to kill myself.”
-M.B.
